i hate hot days

...but i kind of like it at night when things start to cool down and i can leave my window open and sit at my tiny desk listening to this american life. i'm so excited by the little/pretty things that i'm adding to my desk! the cup+saucer were obviously a great $1 find, as is the 50 cent glass vase sitting next to my ice cream cone bank.

in other news, it's odd to sometimes not wear my bangs down. i've had them since birth, practically, so reacquainting myself with my forehead is... a little shocking.

my new hobby is perusing estate jewelry

...which makes me feel a little lame, yes. but there's the cutest little antique shop by my office! it's a collective run by 14 old women and each of them has a section of the store in which they display their wares, so it's always a new woman working/a new batch of goodies to look at and lust over.

right now, i am obsessed with this big pearly heart-shaped ring, but i am afraid to ask for pricing because it is in the 14k gold cabinet. OH WELL. i can dream. in the meantime, i bought cheapsie earring studs today. that should tide me over on the jewelry that belonged to dead people front for a while.

speaking of anna:

lovely lovely lovely lovely.

of course france circa 1960 is my go-to style inspiration!

coffee and godard

A delightful combination. I'm such a sucker for French films from the 60s, yum. And who doesn't love Anna Karina?

this dog is a better dancer than i am

There's nothing like being on the phone for 56 minutes with AT&T customer service trying to JUST GET A FREAKIN' ROUTER added to your account to no avail. I suppose once we get internet set up, we'll just pick one up from Best Buy or something, ugh. I'm not about to pick up the phone and try again.

In other news, Johnny got a new basket!!! Unfortunately, attaching a basket to the front of the bike makes for very wobbly/scary steering, so I think I'll go ahead and move it to the back. nonetheless, I'm excited to not have to tote everything I own on my back anymore.

It's supposed to reach the high nineties here in the next couple days (oy), but I think it should cool down by the end of the week. I really can't wait for consistent fall weather!

eczema eczema eczema

we meet again.

>:(

FEBRUARY 1, 2011

I decided to go ahead and set a freakin' date for my clothing fast, b/c why not turn it into a "real" project rather than some abstract goal in my head?

I realize the date seems a bit arbitrary, but here's my reasoning:

1. It's realistic. Five months from now is much more doable for me than a YEAR. I'd never make it. I'd surely relapse and buy everything in sight as soon as I broke down if that was the case.

2. By that time, I should (fingers crossed!) be in some sort of permanent position, and then if the situation arises where I need to buy nicer work clothes, I'm free to do so. Also, I'll have more monies to spend.

3. I'll be REALLY excited to pick out my Valentine's Day date outfit, haha!

Yes, that's it. In the meantime, seems like all my $ is being sucked into Amtrak+other transportation costs and my insatiable appetite for food that is bad for me :(. I am okay with that, provided I don't pack on the accompanying pounds to my midsection!

Speaking of which...

I'm hungry again. SIGH.

I have always found Ryan Gosling kind of annoying as an actor (maybe this is just my deep-seated ire towards "The Notebook"... WHAT KIND OF A MOVIE WAS THAT?! An annoying, excruciating to watch one, that's what), but I've been listening to the Dead Man's Bones album recently, and I think that he might be a better musician than actor. The whole album is perfectly atmospheric and beautiful -- the kind of stuff I want to lie in bed with all the lights off and listen to.

I might just be a sucker for clapping and children's choirs though. Embarrassing, I know.

yes baby yes

A gilded dictionary?! OH MY GOD, MY LATENT ENGLISH MAJOR WANTS IT.

lol

I could watch this for days.

FUTURE PURCHASES FOR MY FUTURE PUPPIES.

I am going to have such smartly dressed pets, yes yes yes. What proper little canine gentlemen :).

also...

FUCK, I can't wait for fall weather. I've decided right here and now that my new clothing fast does NOT apply to hosiery. How could you resist thigh high socks? They're so grown-up schoolgirl, I love it.

Caffeining it up at Monsieur Beans, having been awake for two hours (I KNOW?! 6 A.M. WAKE UP TIMES, WHAT IS THIS). I have a writing project that I should get back to asap and some other various errands/work related things to do today, but right now, I'm just sitting here downing excessive amounts of coffee while nomming away on hummus, carrot sticks and crackers. Thank goodness for individually packeted hummus from Costco! Really, just thank goodness for Costco.

Oh, and for your enjoyment, what we've all been waiting for: a peer-reviewed study that concludes that hipsters hate being called hipsters.

...well, DUH. $20 says the person who conducted the research is a hipster him/herself.

HELLO

I had a lovely, albeit transportation-filled weekend! It's so strange to no longer be a college student and to have a job five days a week and to have to travel and plan so much to see people... it takes some getting used to.

I am very tired and I have a work project due "sometime tomorrow." I'm not sure if I should collapse into bed + veg out + wake up very early tomorrow to get into work mode or if I should struggle into my very unwelcoming wooden chair and desk and miserably type through some documents.

I'm opting for the former, I think.

Right now, I think that what I should do to unwind is read about philosophy and apply cream to my eczema flare ups. Yes, sounds like a plan. Tomorrow = early wake up, work, work, work, dinner, see the (high school friend) girrrls? I certainly hope so.

I JUST PICKED A LOCK WITH MY BOBBY PIN

Yup.

Feeling pretty cool.

I really need to start watching my spending. The fact that I am generally idle during work hours (thus far) and that I've been fronting work costs for reimbursement + waiting on my invoices to go through so I can get paid (when will this happen?! I don't even know) makes it so that I probably have less money immediately on hand than I think I do.

TIME TO BE FRUGAL. It's time I picked up some good habits anyway. My no shopping for clothing policy is going swimmingly well, esp because I keep finding things in my closet that, to my shame and embarrassment, I have almost ne

ver worn. What a time for rediscovery! Nonetheless, I still can't shake my bad habit of staring lustfully at clothing websites/fashion blogs daily...

I'm also currently OBSESSED with bunny grahams which I found at Target (my favorite place to waste time/money). SO MUCH CUTER/BETTER THAN TEDDY GRAHAMS, IMHO.

work appropriate/fried

and off to staff an event this fine evening! i've got fliers, envelopes and multiple cell phones. now as for striving not to fall asleep during the event itself...

what i would give for a nap, seriously.

ps- weekend in sf + davis! i simply cannot wait.

Kyle's right, my next purchase should not be something frivolous but rather...

an air purifier.

Any suggestions?

While I'm at it, I suppose I should start using my inhaler and doing regular nasal rinses again. Allergies suck, and so does eczema.

matchy matchy

my good old cup and saucer, my tea before bed.

Martin Scorsese is making an adaptation of one of my favorite children's books, "The Invention of Hugo Cabret"! I'm so excited. If you've never picked up this book, it's worth it to read it now. It's an incredibly quick read and mostly pictures. :)

Recently, I've been obsessed with beautiful house ware items. Maybe it's the frustration of living at home with my parents; maybe it's the fact that I'm just growing up! Nonetheless, I bought the prettiest cup and saucer today and can't wait to go thrifting and garage sale shopping all the time to find other inexpensive treasures to save for my future home.

I'm terribly tempted by this cream pitcher from Fred Flare. How fun would it be to use that with morning coffee?

AUJOURD'HUI

This is me, having a one-person office dance party with my new best (and only) office buddy, the newly purchased printer!

I had a lovely (albeit sweltering) day today. After some general office duties, I had lunch with my friend Kim, during which we ate Japanese food, meandered around into little shops, and stared at many tiny antiques! We also went candy shopping and I bought an SF Giants Pez dispenser for Kyle.

My personal finds: lots of candy and a cup and saucer from a thrift store! I was also tempted by some pretty estate jewelry on sale at the antique store, but I resisted.

Things are picking up workwise and I'm definitely glad, but a part of me will miss aimlessly wandering around my hometown and taking the time to explore it. We also had a long conversation with a 70-year-old woman who goes to Europe with her husband every year for three months to "say goodbye to the places we enjoyed so much when we were young." How lovely and romantic is that? I can't wait to have that kind of experience!

OH YA KNOW,

Just sitting at a cafe, drinking tons of coffee, chatting with comcast customer service. Story of my life?!!!

I am dying to try out Psycho Donuts in Campbell

I mean, check out Nutella the Hun. YES. THAT IS A CHOCOLATE DONUT COVERED IN NUTELLA AND SPRINKLES. I need it in my tummy now!

this forever, plz

Being at the cafe while the Beatles cover "band" (middle aged man with guitar) plays to an audience of three people who are sitting there on their laptops is mighty awkward.

"EXCUSE ME MA'AM, I REALIZED THAT YOU'RE HERE A LOT WHEN I'M PLAYING AND I REALLY APPRECIATE THAT YOU DON'T GET UP AND LEAVE."

...he said that to me. Now I feel bad if I leave.

Though I can't spot a difference, apparently my hair's come a long way since last summer! Granted, I only made the decision to grow it out a few months ago, but nonetheless, it's nice to see definitive progress.

In other news, I found a bunch of photos from last summer taken of city hall and various other points around my neighborhood. Apparently I was a lonely little wanderer. (And I kind of miss it)

sooooo

I went to Thailand and saw some elephants. I know I'm the slowest person ever on picture uploads -- in fact, I only just browsed through all the photos today b/c my brother unwittingly handed me his flash drive for a music exchange!

I will post more pictures (probably few and far in between) as I peruse them more closely. This here though was my first day in Thailand. We rode elephants and ate local fruit. It was hot and smelly but nonetheless magical.

I am all headaches and wooziness, thanks to the HEAT ALERT issued in Santa Clara County for the next couple days.

ONE HUNDRED DEGREE WEATHER I AM NOT PREPARED FOR YOU.

Seriously, Thursday, get here asap.

I am at my new favorite haunt, Monsieur Beans, taking a break from the horrid, horrid heat! I've had a productive day, what with various phone calls, trips to all sorts of commercial establishments (via du velo) and a couple episodes of How I Met Your Mother to round the whole day out.

Right now, all I want to do is lie in bed, eat a green tea mochi, and fall asleep. I am all sorts of drowsy and pleased that work should pick up soon. ALSO, miracles of miracles! It turns out that Mai-Chi and I are working on the same project (though she is working for the print company that we have contracted)! What a coincidence.

BIKING EVERYWHERE IN 90 DEGREE WEATHER

I want to die, basically.

Also, work clothes + helmet + TWO cell phones slung around my neck + backpack + sweaty butt = me looking like the biggest idiot in the world. Not to mention the fact that I set off every motion sensor at Target, Home Depot AND TJ Maxx.

Right now I'm eating cold Costco rotisserie chicken with my bare hands and chugging down a water bottle. I'm a beast.

I enjoyed Inception but THIS abridged script which points out every single inconsistency and flaw in the story is hilarioussss.

BTW:

I'm in a Sad Girl kind of mood.

Not that I'm sad, I mean that I'm feeling Sad Girl-ish, capitalized. Melancholic. Listening to Sad Girl music. Wanting to read lovely tragedies. I'm starting to reread The Blind Assassin by Margaret Atwood, which was my high school favorite book in the whole wide world. I think Margaret Atwood novels hold a very special place in my heart, and that place is very tender and still terribly moved by every beautifully written, tragically sad line.

Some more Sad Girl books off the top of my head:

1. A History of Love - Nicole Krauss

2. ANYTHING Virginia Woolf

3. Seven Types of Ambiguity - Eliot Perlman (not so much a Sad Girl book, just a sad person book)

4. The Unbearable Lightness of Being - Kundera

5. Richard Siken's poetry

6. Snow Falling on Cedars

There are a million more, but right now I'm so so stuck on Atwood. I will probably obnoxiously post favorite lines from the novel at some later point.

hot weather woes

The highs for the next three days are in the nineties, according to weather dot com. I'm so ready for crisp weather and fall layers! It's supposed to cool down in the latter half of the week and I'm keeping my fingers crossed for a steady progression of cooler weather from here on out...

but perhaps that's too much to hope for.

As for now, I'm restless and too hot to sleep, just lying in bed with Dugg the champion (see reference photo below) while listening to Rilo Kiley with the headphones on so as not to wake my parents. Hello, high school flashback. Who else had the More Adventurous album memorized by heart?

Teresa and Dugglas, back in Davis. Oddly enough I am currently wearing the shirt that Dugg sports in this photo. WE SHARE A WARDROBE, BECAUSE WE'RE PALS.

NEW OBSESSION:

Checking the pets section of CraigsList daily and daydreaming about pups and bunnies. SOMEDAY. Word on the street is that my cousin just brought home two tiny chihuahuas the size of a hamster. I'M SO JEALOUS. :(

omg fisher price record player, i want you!

On Saturday, whilst bike riding and garage sale shopping with Kyle, we saw this beautiful object!!! Unfortunately, it was not for sale, but omg how kitschy and functional and lovely!

However, we did amass a nice little bundle of records, most notably "LET'S HAVE A PIZZA PARTY" by none other than The Gaylords. A treasure, I'm telling you.

found whilst cleaning out my closet...

A short story authored by eighth grader Teresa Pham!

As expected, it's chock-full of bad, bad writing cliches. The last line: "All he saw before his mother pulled him inside was a figure retreating into the mist."

LOLZ.

I know that dream posts are dumb but I don't care. Last night I had a dream that I was making a ravioli bread bowl (exactly what it sounds like) using materials from Costco in this giant restaurant kitchen, and I was dribbling olive oil on the bread and getting ready to put it in the oven and this song was playing in the background INCESSANTLY.

I have such love for Sea Wolf angst.

I've been reading too many articles about how cell phone usage leads to cancer...

I think I will start using a hands free device more often, even if it makes me look like a douchebag.

Sleepy but quite happy.

some scattered thoughts

This is my life -- sitting in an empty office eating ravioli, listening to This American Life and spilling San Pellegrino all over my laptop.

As uneventful as it is, I'm so glad that it's (almost!) the weekend. Mostly because Kyle's coming up tonight (yayayay) and I plan to show him around my new place of work and surrounding cute shops, and also because I'm tired of waiting around desperately for ANY form of work to come up.

I'm adjusting to life in San Jose, though I still miss everyone in Davis and elsewhere terribly :(. I'll have to plan more day trips/weekend plans to see everyone soon... In the meantime, though, at least I have snail mail and email to keep in contact with everyone! Also, I had dinner with my friend Andrew last night which made me feel like AT LAST I have some friends I can turn to here.

I also NEED fall weather to get here immediately. I'm serious. I can't wait for tights and sweaters again, not only 'cause they're cute but also because they're comfy. And sweating is really gross. IT NEVER JUST DRIES AND GO AWAY. It LINGERS. Terrible. I'm going to go eat a popsicle.

I am officially on a shopping fast

but nonetheless, my mind is already turning to christmas shopping! because, of course shopping for other people doesn't count (and besides, it's a necessity). i know some people hate it, but i love christmas gifting! i get so excited and always come up with a budget and list of ideas months in advance. this is about the time that i usually start...

i'm also really pleased with my shopping fast so far. it gives me the opportunity to rediscover items in my closet, which i have to admit already exceeds capacity. i stopped by a thrift store today just to browse and found out that all the proceeds from the store go to lucile packard children's hospital -- the hospital i stayed at when i was ill! isn't that great?! the store donated over $500,000 to the hospital just last year. i'm dropping all my unnecessary goodies off sometime in the next week. it feels like it'd be a karmically sound move.

NYT article on "emerging adulthood," or the state of people in their 20s today

The 20s are a black box, and there is a lot of churning in there.

A long article, but definitely worth reading. It's interesting because everything that they're citing seems intrinsically tied in some way to hipster culture (I mean, good lord, the photo gallery for this article!) and this stalling of "true" adult life, but it does bring up some interesting points and research.

A THREE YEAR OLD RECITING BILLY COLLINS

omgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomg... I almost cried when I watched this, it's too cute to exist.

GOOD MORNING ALL:

I look like I work at a bank, lulz. This is post-college me, I suppose? WHAT WILL I DO WITH YOU NOW, FISHNET STOCKINGS? SEQUINED MINISKIRTS? HELLO KITTY HANDBAGS? TSHIRTS WITH CARTOON DOGS ON THEM?

In other news, I must get back into the practice of eating breakfast. Nom nom.

OMG THIS IS SO LULZY

HAHA she slaps a girl wearing a Kurt Vonnegut t-shirt at the end!!!

Waiting for checks that I've written to be subtracted from my checking account while still using my debit card is like a really really stupid game of chicken.

empty room + teresa + johnny the bike = employment

exercise count: > 6 miles so far. by the time i get home later today i'll have biked 10 miles! i'll also have gone to ace hardware too many times because i'm a forgetful idiot who keeps neglecting to make the right number/sets of extra keys :(

I just biked three miles

and now I am "at work" drafting content while sitting in a cafe in downtown Willow Glen. I wish this was what work looked like every single day! Oh wait, that's just a college student's life. :( Bummer.

STRAWBERRY YOGURT POPSICLES (WITH HONEY)

This is what I did tonight (while watching "Brief Interviews With Hideous Men") whilst everyone else in my family was at the gym. AT LEAST I MADE SOMETHING HEALTHY, RIGHT? Although, to be honest, I wanted to make lemon bars at first, only I was scared of picking fruit in the yard at night and also the ripe lemons were too out of reach for me so I gave up.

I am tired/overwhelmed by the giant bags and boxes of things that I own sitting in the garage! I figure I shall tackle them slowly in the next couple weeks. Tomorrow I'm going to test out the route to the office on bike, wish me luck!

what's up. you can call me MAJOR DORK

I was completely uninterested in this movie until I caught a glimpse of Dianna Agron (aka Quinn Fabray!) and now I must see it. Because I think she's real pretty. And also, the movie is called "The Romantics." It's bound to be a guilty pleasure.

AND SPEAKING OF HIPSTERS

lulz at this commercial and the accompanying print ad even though i realize that it's all a clever marketing scheme that ultimately... is probably directed at hipsters.

In other news, I think everyone will be very pleased to hear that American Apparel shares now trade at less than $2, whereas they traded at $16.80 in December 2007 (the height of the hipster boom).

at... work?

right now i'm sitting at my desk at home after a rough morning running all over the place picking up/dropping off documents and now i'm scarfing down a turkey sandwich and a vietnamese iced coffee as i listen to the dmv's lovely on-hold music on speakerphone. i am realizing that NOW more than ever is when i need my driver's license, but unfortunately the appointment system doesn't have any openings ANYWHERE until end of september (ridiculous, right?!). even davis, roseville, freakin' watsonville -- all booked solid.

well my nommies are good at least, and i'm keeping myself good and busy. AND as you can see i got a new phone! yay! the old one was dying (after 4 years of wear and tear) so my parents took me to the sketchy vietnamese people who sell cell phones next door to the tofu place :).

the route i will take if i bike to work

3.2 miles. Not too bad, eh? I could use the exercise, anyway. I'm getting (who am I kidding - I've always been) "soft."

I am obsessed with this remix

play me a sad song, because

that's what i want to hear

i want you to make me cry

i want to remember

the places that we left

lost to the mists of time

another priceless find:

MY NATIONAL HIGH SCHOOL AND JUNIOR COLLEGE MATHEMATICS CLUB PATCH, DUH.

MU ALPHA THETA 4 LYF.

moving day, complete!

I am so thoroughly exhausted after cleaning out/organizing my apartment belongings. Darling Kyle did most (read: all) of the heavy work - for which I am eternally grateful because I suck at carrying/lifting anything heavier than the average house cat - but I am still deliriously tired/amazed at how much clutter I could accumulate in the span of three years! I am apaper pack rat, I have come to realize. Upon returning home, I took a gander at my closet and within 10 minutes, had filled another full trash bag with PURE PAPER. As in, all my class notes/planners from middle school and beyond. I vaguely remember thinking that one day, I would look back at all of that and TOTALLY want to know what I had for lunch every day in the seventh grade, but it seems that this is not the case. I'm rearranging the furniture in my bedroom to fit things (pictures to follow someday soon) and all my knick knacks, books, and OBSCENE amounts of clothing are still sitting in the garage.

I will miss apartment 25 terribly!!! Bri gave me a scrapbook which was so sweet and adorable and wonderful :). Oh all the good times we've had.

I'm just rambling on now, oh dear. I will end with a picture of myself that I found amongst my belongings. Hey look everyone, it's cancer patient Teresa! I sure loved my turban.

the dress i had made in vietnam is lovely

JUSTIN BIEBER IS PLAYING IN SAN JOSE ON MY BIRTHDAY

AND THERE IS NO WAY IN HELL THAT I WOULD EVER CONSIDER GOING.

YAYAYAYAYAYAY.

moving out tomorrow!

i just paid off the last of my bills on the internetz (i think).

i'm going to miss apartment 25 terribly :(. i'm trying to make the best of my situation here, but it's still not ideal. however, it's comforting to know that i'll have a bit of an income coming my way soon and (one would hope) some mode of transportation.

also, i need to start going running. or like, walking. or like, moving at all. i'm a blobbityblobblobblob.

i found a snippet in my journal:

drinking tea on a saturday night to stave off a sore throat that seems inevitable
i am thinking of the ways in which we find ourselves wounded by
silences and fabricated absences, licking the crevices where we imagine the blood would seep out --
my poor knees, mostly, and that place on my neck that you always kiss with such tenderness.

---

hmm is it salvageable or just a little ditty from some diary entry? i love looking back at writing months and months later when it's unrecognizable.

a dream of togetherness

turned into a brighter mess

a faint sign my spoken best

now, now

NEW BLOG LAYOUT

What do you think? I have a new header/title (tentatively) but the bunnies are still on the sidebar and have multiplied.

I don't handle coffee (or any form of caffeine) too well.

SHAKY AND GAGGY. Story of my life!

HI ALL. CURRENTLY, I'M:

watching bright star, a romantic drama about john keats (literary period dramas, how could i ever resist)

reading licks of love by john updike

guiltily reading the latest issue of glamour magazine, with our beloved jennifer lopez on the cover!

eating green tea mochi and milk chocolate truffles (both from trader joe's)

awaiting word on my temp job/when i get to pick up my keys!!!, dinner, some monies to tide me over for a while, the brilliant clarity of new adulthood, a car, my driver's license (i have an appt. made to take my test at the end of sept -- yes, it takes that long)...

dreading the tedium of moving out of my apartment, stress stress emotional distress (being a young adult sucks sometimes)

wishing for a great deal many things, including instant transportation to anywhere in the world (still don't get why teleportation isn't possible in this day and age), eradication of the need to sleep, a million postage stamps, an end to all life stressors/absurdities, a unicorn sighting...

missing everyone!! you and you and you and you.

contemplating privating my blog now that i'm job hunting and being an "adult" and all that shit. or maybe making a new, "super secret" private one. i'll keep ya'll posted.

So today, after taking a temp position, I got phone calls from two other offers. SUCH IS LIFE, I SUPPOSE. Also, I signed up for a night Web Design class 'cause I'm gonna be soooo tech savvy in the future (yeah right). I also daydreamed about going to Canada for a little bit, but that's unrelated to everything, except for perhaps Katrina's envy-worthy road trip. I want to make big adventurous travels!

in other news, my back hurts and i'm still battling lactose intolerance. lactaid makes things easier on my stomach but dairy still exacerbates my asthma. man, i feel like such a weirdo with nerdy medical issues (i mean, eczema? asthma? orthodontics for five years?). anyone else suffering from these things? SUPPORT GROUP, YEAH?

ooooooh dear

maybe i'm just jealous...

but the fact that jonathan safran foer and nicole krauss have a $6.75 million house because they have kids and "obviously we all need our own floor"?! really?! that's such an absurd thing to say.

ugh, you two and your bestselling (brilliant) novels and big house and own floors to retreat to for writing projects.

yeah, i'm SO jealous. :(

(re)obsessed with stars recently

i won't pretend

that i can't see the end

THIS SONG PIERCES RIGHT THROUGH MY HEART EVERY TIME.

HELLO OUT THERE

Is anyone in San Jose?

SAYONARA, LACTOSE INTOLERANCE!

...I REALLY HOPE THIS STUFF WORKS.

Lord knows I can't live without my cheese, ice cream, chocolate, condensed milk, etc.

In one of my Groupon emails du jour was this lovely offer:

"Up to 67% off Pole-Dancing Classes!"

No thanks, I think I'll pass on that one.

But, restaurant coupons?! Keep them coming :)

I'm going to start writing again.

I just have to!

Here goes, self-discipline and a heaping of inspiration :).

FOUR AM

... and I'm delirious!

Boondock Saints, X-Box, leftover pizza, Batman talk... I have obviously been hangin' out with teenage boys.

GOODNIGHT.

also...

I miss this.

Even though I look horribly grubby and Kyle looks UNAMUSED with my shenanigans.

hi friends!

we need to hang out soon. i need friends in my life, for sure. i've been so weepy lately just thinking about saying goodbye to my apartment (oh, home for three years!). i cried in the bathroom at church today because it felt like a relative of mine was dying. i didn't even cry when my dog was put down. WHAT DOES THAT SAY ABOUT ME. I DONT EVEN KNOW.

in other news -> green tea mochi is the best thing in the world!!!

"When you date someone, it's like taking one long course in who that person is. And then when you break up, all that knowledge's useless. It's the emotional equivalent of an English degree."

-Ted from "How I Met Your Mother"

HEYYYY. THAT'S RUDE.

I still love you and am eternally loyal to you, English literature. I don't think you're THAT useless.

this blog

has turned into my official "Teresa Needs Employment" blog! I should just link it to my resume, bam.

HOLY CRAP

MY RETAINER DOESN'T FIT ANYMORE.

what a waste of five years and two phases of orthodontics.

PS-

I also found lovely lovely envelopes and such lying around, so I think I'm going to make pretty letter-things for the people I love most. :)

oh hai

I'm about 2 centimeters away from the oh-so-fashionable TOO MUCH HAIR, NO EYES look.

I am also about 2 centimeters away from finishing "Love in the Time of Cholera." Such lovely, lovely words on a page! I'm in the interminable process of "cleaning" out my childhood room, and I discover new/exciting things every day, like old letters, plastic fruits, books I once loved, etc. I almost forgot about my former flame, Margaret Atwood, whose writing I slobbered over for years.

I can't tell which one I want to reread first! "The Robber Bride" is in plain view, but I remember a very special fondness for "The Blind Assassin" even though it was a very slow, very long novel. But I have a weakness for tragic love stories, so...

I shall see! Perhaps I will be inspired to write Atwood-esque stories next. :)

DEAR JUSTIN DELA CRUZ:

I never gave you your Christmas card.

temping whilst job-hunting

...doesn't sound like the worst thing I could be doing, right?

At least I'd have something to get me out of the house + monies to spend.

I just saw Inception for the second time

...it was much longer.

I'M SO SLEEPY, WHY AM I STILL AWAKE AND ON CRAIGSLIST REFRESHING THE MARKETING/PR/AD TAB AS IF PEOPLE IN THE BAY AREA WILL POST JOBS ONLINE AT 12:53 A.M.?!

story of my life, I suppose

A must-attend.

You know, I've never understood the mystique around particular high-end stores. It seems like every woman in the world is craaaaazy about designer goods, and of course, has a fond little sigh-y place for Tiffany & Co. And of course, I too am all about sighing over pretty clothes and goods and fabrics.

But can you believe that the tiny patent leather business card holder shown above retails for $65?! C'EST IMPOSSIBLE. It's lovely and I feel pretty cool with it (although I'd feel cooler if I had some business cards or proof of a career to put in it -- hint hint, powers of the universe), but I would never purchase it for myself. It was a gift from a very generous and wonderful relative, and I love it.

However, I'm flabbergasted by the price tag that these things come with. The sterling silver card case (I looked it up) is upwards of $200. THAT'S ABSURD. You're just carrying little slips of paper around! Why do you need such expensive accoutrements for them?!

Suffice to say, business accessories confuse me.

HI-CHEW, now available in bulk at Costco

YOU KNOW YOU'RE JEALOUS.

I'm pretty bummed my mom drew the line at bulk packages of Hello Panda and Yan Yan though :(. Maybe next time? OR PERHAPS I'LL JUST MAKE MY OWN TRIP TO COSTCO AND STOCK UP ON SECRET STOCKPILES OF GOODIES THAT I WILL HIDE UNDER MY BED AND EAT UNTIL I EXPLODE LIKE A HUNGRY HUNGRY HIPPO.

I love junk food and I'm going to die for it -- I just know it.

I am so bad at leaving voicemails

...and also bad at waiting desperately by the phone for a phone call. Gee, job hunting is no good for the ego!

In other news, ever since I've returned from the homeland, I've been craving every ethnic food except Vietnamese. MUST INDULGE.

In other other news, I need to learn how to drive la voiture. And soon! This is just getting pathetic.

PS- I think I'll take my father's old camera out for a spin sooooon.

LATE NIGHT CRAVINGS FOR GRILLED MEAT

I would kill for a burger or some ribs...

"Entry-level" positions that pay $60k and upwards, stop taunting me whilst I job hunt. You're only going to break my heart.

I WANT YOU I WANT YOU I WANT YOU SO BAD

Goddamn it, this is where not knowing how to drive (or no longer living across the street from the grocery store) really sucks. :(

IT'S BLISTERINGLY HOT OUTSIDE

...but at least it's peach season!